Don’t forget your hat

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I started driving when I was fourteen. I can still taste the dust as it came billowing into the window of my mom’s red Buick station wagon – my first real taste of freedom came in back and forth trips on the dirt road that was home. As long as I stopped before I hit the pavement, I had my parent’s blessing.

Cat-claw bushes and jackrabbits dotted my daily experience while most of my classmates were shuttled to friends’ homes on pavement that ended in cement driveways.
They lived on smooth, city-trodden roadways – I dusted the bulls that charged the fence every time I drove past them.
While they exercised their fingers playing Nintendo, I dodged javelinas.
My friends were good about taking the journey out to the dairy road as some call it, to cool down with water fights and trek down to the creek (crick) and walk along the dry creek (crick) bed and gossip in the arms of crumbling ruins that were tucked into the corners. We never tired of exploring the hidden recesses of The Creek and its mysteries. One corner, where fierce waters once carved a cavern into the land, became our fort. Yes, teenagers who grew up with The Goonies and Red Dawn still had forts. At least we weren’t drinking.

Never buy the excuse that kids party because there’s nothing else to do.

There were various dips and thrones carved into the limestone walls where we sat and discussed school projects and would this be an appropriate place to hide if America was invaded (still not drinking)?
One of my friends came over in a floppy velvet hat, on a particularly awesome day, and I immediately knew I had to have one. After I got it they were promptly given an important assignment: driving hats.
Down the dirt road we drove, taking turns at the red wheel, laughing at the poor saps that drank all of their youthful memories away while we were….um…..imaginative.
Really, only fond memories were made wearing those hats that represented our early steps into independence.
During our carpool home from school,  one of my newer neighbors pointed out to his mom  (is it still a carpool when no one lives close enough to see it happen?) that I could drive at 14 and he couldn’t. She said without hesitating, “Sherry is a country girl. Country girls can do that sort of thing.”
Did I mention that they also lived in said country?

You know you’re a country girl when you can bend the rules. (???) Was it the hat?

My daughter now owns my driving hat. She is only five and it hangs over her head 100_2769like a drapery but it is now her time to discover the world of imagination – a world where she can find freedom in being her, right where God has placed her.

When she is learning to drive, I may take her back to the dirt road for practice. Civilization is starting to trickle into that old habitat, but there is still freedom in the unstructured road, the ebb and flow of wildlife and there is, of course, The Crick.

Let’s raise our lemonades – (and other drinks that allow us to remember our youth) to the gift of imagination

…freedom,

and to those who wear hats.

Do you have a favorite childhood memory to share? Tell us in the comments.

Queen Esther vs. The Disney Princess

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Her white lace dress floats on the swirls of her princess dance. Blue eyes catch emulations of Snow White in a mirror with a hand to her face and a soft voice to sing along to her play.

They’re sweet these moments and if I can capture them on camera, I will. With a click and a wink of year 5, another day goes by where my daughter thinks the 100_2653world will be a smooth walk in her princess shoes.

No one wants to deal with the ugly stepsister, but Chloe will need a little fire in her step when it’s time to face her.

I like to teach her about the real heroes – the ones in sandals and hearts for justice. Those who were set apart from the other girls, not the ones set on joining the myriad castle clicks.
Will her goal be to stand out to the young princes swarming the halls of high school or will she stand up for the King of glory?

I like to tell Chloe about Queen Esther (an edited version, of course). When King Xerxes’ wife, Vashti, refused to appear naked in front of a party (to show off her beauty), Xerxes, on advice from his counsel, decided it was time for a new, more obedient wife.
Many local women were kidnapped and forced to live in a Harem for one year to receive beauty treatments. At the end of the year they all appeared before the King where he would choose his favorite. Esther, the most beautiful, was chosen as the new Queen.
What Xerxes didn’t know was that she was not Persian like she allowed everyone to believe (on advice from her guardian Mordecai), but a Jewish woman named Hadassah.
When Haman, Xerxes’ right hand man, decided that he wanted to annihilate the Jews, Mordecai said this to Esther:

For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” Esther 4:14

By law Esther could not appear before Xerxes without his summons. This could cause her to loose her life. But to save the Jewish people, she did anyway. Because she was different -  set apart by God to do this very thing, and succeeded.

Not bad for a harem chick. Beauty became a tool, not her identity.

Chloe’s eyelashes flutter down, sweeping my glance to her painted toes.

She is beautiful and charming. But underneath all the layers, she is no Snow White.

She is a girl who loves to run and play in the mud. She is a protector of her baby brother when the big kids get a little rough and she is quick to learn when an injustice has been done.

My prayer is that she and her generation will grow to recognize that beauty is not in the mask, but in the way that God has set them apart.

How do you think our culture has had an impact on image vs. calling? Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments.

A pocket full of grace

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100_2670Sometimes we don’t make it to the remote in time to silence the tragedies, giving a moment for the world’s monsters to prey on little ears. Boston, Texas, car accidents, poisoned envelopes. Days like these burrow into our skin, Sending pricks and stings to frame our attitude.

Noah mows down the landscaping with little feet like a fierce motor, collecting rocks to fill his pockets and dirt to fill every crevice he can find. It’s his frosting in a world waiting to be dressed with his experiments.
A fierce wind exposed his mischievous nature – rocks were propelled into the neighbor’s yard.

“Don’t ever throw things over the fence – you might hurt someone!”

His head sank while his upper lip resumed its pout position. “Kay, Mommy.”

Pockets get an inspection before going into the washer. Take out the rocks, wash away the dirt, and invest in prayer. Lord, let him hear you above the wind.

Ghosts of terror fill the living room again as we sit inside. The glow from the TV paints us in its fear-song.

Some people cry out, “Where is God in all of this?” Others can’t find Him in a world full of hurt and ugliness so they turn their back on His existence.
Can a world that has rejected God learn recognize His voice again?

Most of the time He can be heard in moments of grace.

“Mommy, There’s something in my pocket for you.” Noah shows me his little smile after the news blasts its latest fear alert and I’m wondering what kind of trick he’s playing on me. I switch to a cartoon and reach into his cargo pocket only to grasp nothing.
“What is it, Noah? I can’t find it.”
He smiles again and tells me in his sugary sweet voice, “It’s a kiss.”
And Mommy melts.

Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave. 1 Kings 19:11-13
God is in the compassion of rescuers, volunteers, and all those who bring forth goodness in the midst of evil.
He is the root of love, although you have to stop and let that sink in past the smoke and debris, deep inside to where he knit His signature into your DNA and realize that evil is not sovereign.
And it will never be as powerful as a pocket full of grace.

How do you recognize God’s voice? Does He speak to you through other people or in unusual ways? I love hearing from you!

Our beautiful world

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What do you do when your child questions the darkness pouring out of the daily news? How do you incorporate a lesson with their talents?
Chloe (age 5) and I worked on this story together. We crafted it with the hope that we will remember to focus on the beautiful things rather than the bad news.

Francesca’s Beauty

Francesa was tired of ugly things. Like when her friend, Charlotte, was injured in a car accident. Or the scary things she heard on TV lately. These thoughts kept swimming around her mind and dived deep into her tummy until she felt awful.
“Francesca,” said her Mommy, “when the world seems awful and ugly, you need to 100_2687make something beautiful. Beautiful things outshine the ugly ones, and sometimes even make something extraordinary happen.”
Francesca walked around the house while trying her best to think of something beautiful. Something that made her happy. Something that was bigger than the ugly things.
A smile started to creep over Francesca’s face as she walked into the kitchen. She pulled out pans, bowls and spoons. Bottles and boxes and piles of fruit were piled so high she could barely see out the window.
Thoughts of something nice started to fill her mind. How do I make this beautiful enough to outshine the bad things?
Francesca knew she had to try.
She made batches and batches of muffins. Cranberries, blueberries, lemon zest, cinnamon and bananas! Chocolate muffins, corn bread muffins, mini muffins, HUGE muffins! The measuring made her smile, the stirring made her sing, and thoughts of many happy faces
brought sparkles to her eyes.
100_2689Francesca and her mom filled five big baskets and went to town. The first one went to her friend, Charlotte. The second went those at the fire station. And the third basket went to the homeless man that Francesca had seen digging through the school dumpster. She found him sitting on the steps of a church, praying for food.
The last two baskets went to the volunteers at the hospital.
When Francesca and her mom got home, they headed for the last pan of muffins cooling in the window only to find a gray dove sitting next to the pan.
“Oh no!” Francesca and her mom tried to shoo it away, but were stopped in their 100_2691tracks by the most extraordinary sight. Wrapped in a heavenly aroma, the dove flew away with a muffin in its mouth as its gray wings turned to gold.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Philippians 4:8

Do you have a way of keeping a positive attitude? Tell us in the comments! =)

Raise that flag

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There she is. That smile, underscored by an obnoxious personality.

She is staring at me from a facebook photo with a few new crinkles around her eyes, but that same over-confidant expression was boring holes into my peace.
Go away.
One click of the mouse sent her image from the screen, but memories of her look-at-me-I’m-smart-laugh kept haunting me as I tried to push away memories of school, youth group and mean girls.
Yeah, youth group. She was one of us, a fellow believer in Christ and yet I was offended by her habit of talking to us shy kids as if we were slowwwww.
I couldn’t have felt more different.

Here I go to Olive Garden with two of my closest friends. The kind I can laugh with until the tears swim over my cheeks. The kind where making mistakes is ok, because forgiveness runs rampant with those that are closer than sisters.
These are the same, my kindred spirits.

And then God tells me to quit building walls in the midst of family.

“Who? That girl, that…loudmouth?”

“The whole family”, He says and lets that settle into my spirit.

God often uses other people as the chisel to carve true integrity into our rough personalities. A chisel that never scrapes the stone is useless. -Beth Moore

I'm on the bottom left. Laurin, one of the Olive Garden group in on top.

I’m on the bottom left. Laurin, one of the Olive Garden group, is on top.

From childhood we learn that safety is in clicks. We find our way into those youthful support groups, feeling protected in our position by our family of whoever’s: the cheer squad, the fashionistas, the jocks, and of course, the free spirits.

And then we construct walls to keep the rest of them out. They don’t think like us, therefore they belong over there. If you point your finger, make sure it’s outward.

So we are all aiming our disdain at each other, heading for another war called civil, but this time it’s reaches past the blood and rips the soul…we exist in a distraction-war while the true enemy laughs at us unseen.

I see him now. He is breathing lies into our ears. He is the one guiding our fingers, causing this dirty thing called offense to cover our truest vision.

It stops or we lose.

We are family eternal. If we stand shoulder to shoulder, and sew all of our flags into one, we win.

So that obnoxious grin is no worse than my reaction. I will choose not to be offended.

One. Family. In. Christ.

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.1 Peter 4:8

The road home

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The houses spread over the hill like a deck of cards, where once it was a desert-land scattered with cattails and solitude. The highway looked the same as it always has with speeding cars and remnants of failed tires, but turning off the exit brought a place unfamiliar to me. I felt like a stranger in my own hometown.

Chickenpea met us at the gate, dust-coated fur and a nub of a tail going like a propeller. Even the dog was different than the one that saw me off to college. He was now more interested in my children – the new roots in an old land. He ran around with Chloe, chasing and being chased with an understanding only kids and dogs have; here and now.
The mom who met me at the door will always be my mom, although her hair has been painted with a few more strands of silver.

“Happy Easter!” We celebrate with ham and nice clothes, playing and OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAremembering.
The grass yard where I used to hunt eggs has been devoured by gophers and the sun, leaving only the shade tree, pruned and bare, waiting for the extravagance of spring.

I think of the One who spent a day on an undressed Easter tree, making the way for new life and a perfect home…

My brother played with the kids, as do all good uncles and shaped play doh
over the coffee table that holds the photo album of our Grandpa’s kin. In it are family members, who like all of us came from one place only to move on to somewhere else. You can almost see the questions on their faces: Will it be better there? Do my answers reside on the other side of the mountain?

The house we sit in was shaped by the hands of our father, gone on to his eternal home but his thumbprint still lingers in the saddle, the cowboy hat and our blue eyes that still search for him.

Since Adam and Eve moved on from Eden, mankind has become nomads, searching for new life, new possibilities and always trying to make it back to the garden again – to run like children and commune with our Father in paradise.

On the way out of town, we stop at McDonalds to satisfy the forever hunger of our children.

“Who is that Mommy?” asked Noah, pointing to a man at the counter. I look around and don’t recognize a single face – this being one of those small towns that claims to know everybody has become a town of strangers to me.

“Just someone who is hungry, son.”

Returning home, we find the smells of breakfast lingering in the house and carry in sleepy children, played out for the day.

When our eyes close to the darkness, we rest with dreams of green grass and the cross only to wake to a new day, remembering that we are not standing in our final home. As we follow the furrowed road that eventually becomes reflected around the corners of our eyes and in the palms of our hands, we realize that this nomadic life will bring us back to paradise one day – Back to the perfect place, with our Father who rained His love on us from the Easter tree.

They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. John 17:16

The Song

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Thump-thump, thump-thump, thump-thump , breathe…
From the dust we come, into cadence – opening our eyes to light that fades into dark, and light again which prompts the birdsong. We breathe in and out through the days, the storms, the spinning of the earth. The flowers open and close like our eyelids; we walk and swing, back and forth as we gaze at the stars, winking into the night. We give birth in tune to our pain only to celebrate that new thump-thump, thump-thump, thump-thump that eats and sleeps in a steady dance of survival.

We even fight in rhythms; the back and forth of who made us, what made us, or how we might be accidents…

Accident: noun, an unfavorable chance event.

We feel that thing, love; the one we can’t touch but know the best. It resides inside us; it’s reflected in the eyes of our families and bff’s. It is always ready for more – more family, more friends, and more passions. It grows constant, and is one of two things we have that will never wear out. It heals broken hearts, makes forgiveness possible and promotes peace. You cannot take it to a lab to be dissected, or explain it as an unfavorable chance event.

I held the phone so close to my ear it might have been my ear, when my mom said, “Your father smiled when he died. From ear to ear it was a smile of complete satisfaction.”

The soul: That piece of us that doesn’t go back to dust. It holds the cadence of God and continues on with Him when our bodies, once again, join the earth.100_2428

So when you are in the dark, and question the validity of that Book on your nightstand – when only the crickets are present to keep you company- remember they sing to an unbroken rhythm; a song that you were written into by the One who is Love.

And you, who sing with Him, are beautiful music.

He is here: the One who forms the mountains, creates the wind, and reveals His thoughts to man, the One who makes the dawn out of the darkness and strides on the heights of the earth. Yahweh, the God of Hosts, is His name. Amos 4:13

God and smoke

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How many times can a mother repeat instructions to unhearing children until she feels like a shadow?

Oh yes, it was on of those days when it took two hours to eat lunch and clear the floor so I could vacuum. Do they put toys away just to be distracted by another?

I feel a mommy meltdown coming on.

“Mommy, can I ride my bike with you when Daddy gets home to watch Noah?”

“Maybe, we’ll see,” for the tenth time. Chloe’s mind was on her bicycling goal of the day, deaf to anything else told to her – like, “clean your room”, and “sit down when you eat.”

And Noah is just two and thinks it’s funny to run around with pull-ups on his head.

Of course, while I’m accusing them of distraction, my own mind can’t get out of Chapter 7 – my campfire scene. While I chop tomatoes and serve lunch, I am 100_2678mentally writing about weary nomads enjoying a fire in the Rocky Mountains. All the while, I can feel the warmth of the fire and an occasional spark upon my face as Chloe asks me the same question she did two minutes ago. Noah is chanting his new favorite word, poo-poo, while we eat.

Naptime brings a temper tantrum to poo-poo boy.

*sigh*

And so it goes like this until I have to bear-hug Noah to get him to calm down and Chloe is handing me one of her babies because she can see I’m on the verge of losing it. She passes me Bernard the raccoon, and all I can do is snap at her because she still hasn’t cleaned her room.

I feel singed.

It’s finally silent and I am not going to get out chapter 7 because it’s probably my fault they are out of control today. They know when I’m distracted and in turn, push mommy into the shadows because they can. The campfire will have to smolder for now.
I take a deep breath and pull out The Word  -  my eyes find this Psalm:
1. How happy is everyone who fears the Lord, who walks in His ways!
2. You will surely eat what your hands have worked for. You will be happy, and it will go well for you.
3. Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your house, your sons, like young olive trees around your table…Psalm 128: 1-3

The crinkling of paper captures my attention. I look toward Chloe’s door where underneath it she has slipped something. I pick up a drawing of a face with a little nose, smiling. Rabbit ears constructed out of Kleenex are attached by lotion, the closest thing she has to glue in her room.

A giggle meats my“Oh”, and her little face appears in the crack of the door.

This is my vine, who came to know Jesus with the testimony of a cat’s love and gives peace offerings in the midst of shadows. I hug her and thank the One who is gracious enough to clear away the smoke.

You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit-fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. This is my command: Love each other. John 15:16

Finding the Bicycle Man

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I felt my jaw tense and wanted to snap at the girl who told me that my daughter’s dentist appointment was made for the office in the neighboring town, not the one I was standing in.

“Let me see if I can get your daughter’s chart transferred from the Prescott office to this one.”

I managed a smile and was glad that she was willing to fix their mistake. Hers? Mine? Should I be getting mad yet?

“We’ve never been to the Prescott office.”

I plucked my son from their Seuss-like walls, changed his pull-up and watched Chloe flit from corner to corner – waiting – before we were ushered into an exam room.

“Were your daughter’s x-ray’s done at the Prescott office? I can’t find them here.”
Jaw tightens again. No wonder I have TMJ.

“We’ve never been to the Prescott office.” Do they think I’m cheating on them with the Prescott office?

We made it through with clean teeth and no cavities – and an attitude adjustment. I don’t want to be that jerk who points the blame at all who inconvenience me.100_1225

I want to be the Bicycle man.

The bicycle man never had a bike as a child. He never got to soar around his neighborhood like a child who firsts feels a breeze kiss their face and blows miles of joy into their hair, as they discover the speed of delight.
So instead of blaming his parents, the town’s leaders and eventually the country, he focused on the lessons of his own depravity.
He grew up, filled his garage with old bikes he collected and fixed, and shared them with his neighborhood.
A steady stream of children lined up to sign out a bike for the day, learning to say “please” and “thank you” from the man who gave all of his free time and fun money to others. They also received lessons on bike repair, the older kids fixing the bikes of little ones. (Check out this link)

He doesn’t let the fear of lawsuits stop him. He doesn’t expect the children to pay for his generosity. He just gives his all that he has – and never had.

I foresee heavenly mansions in his future.

Me. Me. Me. That’s what we have learned from our overindulged culture. This is the sound of the piper, calling for our children to follow behind before they realize the fate that awaits them.
No. It’s time to learn from the bicycle man. Miles under feet shouldn’t be from walking over each other, but bearing the fruit of generosity.

Thoughts on current cultural attitudes? Have you found ways to teach your children the value of generosity? Let us know in the comments.

The Harvey Girls and the state of your shoes

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Exhaustion meets me every day, in the tread of all my shoes. There are my house-shoes in which I mother in; these are worn from shuffling through homework and nightmares, holding me up as I hold on to my little ones trying to shape them into something beautiful. My grey boots I love, all suede-soft and chic to take me shopping and to meet others who are toiling away to replace their jobs with careers. And then my tennis shoes come on to shape me into something strong and resilient so I can continue to work at the things placed before me.

When is that moment when you are in the midst of climbing a mountain and wonder what would happen if you turned around and walked yourself back to the arms of your couch? How much tread can a person wear away…

I wonder how the shoes of the Harvey girls fit after toiling twelve hours a day to feed the wild west…did they know that leaving the refined east would land them in the footsteps of frontiersmen, dusty and scorched from a life less civilized? I see the photos of these women and lean in to hear whispers…I see their appearance, stark and disciplined into nun-like uniforms and pause to hear their stories.

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Fred Harvey (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fred_Harvey_Company) must have been able to see from the top of the mountain when he joined with the Santa Fe Railroad to make traveling west a little more bearable. With rancid food and staff that brawled with the customers, he knew how to lasso the wild spirit of exploration into the right kind of shoes. In came the Harvey girls, stepping in to serve the ones who came to conquer the west, only to be the ones that helped shape it into what it is today.

Somewhere in the midst of their long days, they found the kind of shoes that you can dance in. Many of them found husbands in the businessmen and ranchers that walked into the upper-class restaurants and waltzed away with them onto the dusty paths of the west. They brought their eastern education and raised their voices at community events, churches and civic activities. They had children and shaped them as they shaped their communities from rough places into towns that blossomed.

I rock my son with the heater blowing and a lone cricket playing a night song. My own shoes are worn down, but every step taken has been meaningful. I work, sometimes to exhaustion, but I intend to keep going until I carve my own trail into this world.

Let’s walk together, like the Harvey girls and the frontiersmen, so our children will look at our footprints and find a reason to keep the trail going.

God has a promise for those who feel worn out:

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31

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